And here's another oops!!!!

Was it really last year that I wrote my last entry???!!!??? OMG (which means Oh My God by the way) I apologize profusely... I don't know who to but thought I would anyway!

I've been a bit busy since I last wrote (she says grinning like the proverbial 'cheshire cat') In February Paul asked me to marry him, and I; being eager as I am not to disappoint, of course said yes. He really is the most special man (he needs to be too!) and I can't wait to tie the knot. It won't be until at least next year though as I need to move over from SE London to Hammersmith in West London first. I'm trying to do a council swap with somebody but funnily enough there isn't anybody who wants to come to 'sunny' Deptford from Hammersmith..... fooolsssssss! In the meantime I'm finding in increasingly difficult to be patient! Patience is not one of my main virtues. Ha!

Haven't been doing enough campaining lately either but that's something I hope to rectify in the not too distant future aswell. I have a few ideas up my sleeve.

Anyway know it's been short but just thought I'd dip my toe... have you noticed how many little sayings I've been using... a bit worrying really!

love
Jen x

Breakthrough Advert...

You might just recognize the ditzy chick with the bad hair day on the beach, but the real point is that there needs to be as much funding as possible going into breast cancer research as we can. There really are some exciting things happening in the laboratory at the moment and I just hope they see the light of day.....

love
Jen x

Ooops... it's been a while!

Also it's very very late/early.... but was just surfing round and noticed that I hadn't blogged in AGES! so here I am with my boring inane banter again....

I'm going to be 39 tomorrow. Most people would be filled with ''oh no, woe is me'' and crushed by the thought of reaching such a ripe old age; not me, I'm thrilled! Just over 2 1/2 years ago I honestly wondered if I'd make it this far, and what would my life be like if I did? I could never have imagined even smiling ever again, let alone having the audacity to actually be happy. But here I am! On the verge of 39, and happy as 'Larry' (who the heck Larry is I don't know, but have heard other people talking about him so thought I might as well too)

I'll be spending my birthday with the love of my life Paul and my fabulous Son Sam. I consider myself to be very fortunate.

Oh and looks like I'm going to be on the tele again. Look out for an advert by Breakthrough from 15th October. I'm the one looking out to sea (and looking like a wally) if they use it this time. Ha ha...

love
Jen x (the sleepy one)

Ok last time......

Right in the interests of your sanity and to save you all from enternal boredom (oh and also because it's a done deal and there isn't any going back now....!)

I STILL DO NOT SMOKE HA HA!!!

IT'S BEEN 5 WEEKS NOW, I CAN FINALLY TAKE A DEEP BREATH IN WITHOUT COUGHING (WHICH IS ALWAYS A BONUS I FEEL!)

Right now on to other things.....

I'm off to the London Live Earth concert this weekend yay! Paul and I have some great seats and Tina is taking Sam to the standing area (I wouldn't have been able to stand long enough to be able to do that and Sam has always wanted to)

Before that though I'm just about to leave for a ''job related interview'' at the local job centre.... I think someone thinks I should be able to work.... yeah ok then.....

Love
Jen x

Me?????..... chimney????

What's the difference between me and a chimney........


I DON'T SMOKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love (the very happy- can you tell?)
Jen xxxxxxxx

Still yay!!!

I'm happy to report that I'm still not smoking! ha ha!

I gave up on Friday evening and it hasn't been as bad as I thought to be honest... I'm not saying it's been easy because there's been various difficult patches (suddenly things that didn't used to bother me at all, or rather that I chose not to let bother me, are now getting on my nerves a bit and I'm finding it difficult to keep my mouth shut, so you have been warned!!) (sorry Paul my love) :-)

Sam did the first part of his maths GCSE today and was quite nervous but it seemed to go well; and I'm so proud of him doing it a whole year early.

Anyway I'll have to be off because I'd hate to become one of those 'boring ex-smokers' who talk about nothing else.... (well... I have mentioned Sam's GCSE too....)

Love
Jen x (who smells very sweet)

By jove I think I may have done it.....

Well ..... I am now a non- smoking person... it hasn't been that long but the longest time I've ever gone without a smoke! I really feel like I am going to succeed too.... watch this space.

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jen x

No more smoking????

OH dear I hear you shouting at the screen ''how can a person who's had cancer smoke!" Well the same as anybody else is the answer... you just put the disgusting stick up to your mouth and take a drag...

The only reason that now I'm able to confess the atrocity of my smoking 'secret' is because I am, at last, ready to give up. The emphasis there should be on the 'I';- lots of my family and friends have been ready for me to give up smoking for an awfully long time- but as anybody who has ever smoked knows, that doesn't actually make any difference and it won't be until the person concerned is ready that the said person can even begin to imagine being successful and managing to stop completely.

So that's the stage I'm at now and have been for a few weeks actually. I've cut down dramatically on the amount I smoke and have decided now that enough is enough and I just do not want to do it anymore. I must confess to having been to my doctor for help and been given a new drug to help me. But I will still need an amount of willpower too and am really really hopeful that I can actually stop now.

I'm really looking forward to being a non smoker.... not having the guilt of making my boy a passive smoker being the main reason, but also because it'll be nice not to be embarrassed about it anymore and not having my clothes smell or my flat... and having some extra dosh... yay!!!

I'm not telling when the actual stop day is, but just to say that it is imminently imminent ha ha.... and I'm very happy about it.

When I think about it I've actually been a smoker my whole life as Mum and Dad smoked when I was growing up; so I wonder what it'll be like to live in a smoke free environment, as I've never had that pleasure.

love
Jen x

An explanation....

Ha ha ha ha!!! Have you ever written something that makes perfect sense to you, then realised that it won't to any other sane being in the known universe.... well I have! The last post was my (rather artistic I thought) impression of my life at the moment; sometimes I'm 'up' and sometimes I'm 'down'...

Right so now I've cleared that up!!!!!!

Oh and by the way you should all read the comments, my friend Steph (the lady I was talking about recently but wouldn't mention) has left one.... (a comment that is, not a bad smell... well not as far as I know) ;-)

Jen x
(who's having an 'up' day in case you hadn't noticed!)

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Jen x