Whoops haven't had time to post in a while, first I had the appointment at the hospital on Thursday then I went up to Suffolk on Friday to break the news to my wonderful Nan, I can tell you now that going to the hospital was a piece of cake compared to having to tell my Nanna that I'm ill.
The hospital appointment wasn't that bad really, I had to do some swabs which was weird- I had to sick extra long sticky buds up my nose and under my armpit so they can check that I'm not going into hospital next week with any 'bugs' (what if some jump on me between now & then?!) Then they did blood pressure and weight etc, then a doctor checked my heart and breathing. Next I took part in some research, by giving some blood, to look at the possible genetic causes of breast cancer- only thing was that the nurse couldn't find a decent vein so she pricked me 3 times then decided she couldn't do it so I had to have a technician do it instead. I have some amazing bruises to show for it. At the same time they took blood for testing for all the other stuff they have to do before an operation. Then we met with Rachel and she spoke to Sam for me about the operation because he's a bit worried, she told him I'd probably be gone from the ward for about 5 or 6 hours but the actual op' would only be about 3 or 4 (that's ok then!!!! not) A Nurse from the ward then came down to meet us and fill out some forms, she was really lovely, all the people I've met have been nice actually which is such a blessing.
I was much more nervous and worried about seeing Nan. I don't know how I managed to stay in my seat on the way up on the train. I've noticed that whenever I have to talk about this to someone I love I start shaking (teeth chattering and everything!) I'm so glad I told her face to face though so she could see that I'm not falling apart.
So now it's all out in the open at last. In a kind of selfish way I'm relieved ..... something else to feel guilty about.
Love
Jen x
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