Just thought I'd better post something... can't sleep you see and was just replying to a comment so thought I may as well. You dear bloggy friends are flattered now aren't ya...
So what have I been up to these last couple of weeks? well, I went to my friends beautiful bonsai centre and met up with a load of other friends who have been touched by breast cancer too. That was fabulous and we all had a fantastic time together. Then I got home and had a serious bump back down to earth session to hear of another dear friend who has been 'touched' by breast cancer a little too much for my liking. I won't go into too many details, because I haven't got her permission, but just to say that this one was a little too 'close to home' for me to handle very well and I was very upset at the news. It made me seriously question if it is healthy for me to continue with this blog or to continue with my Herceptin forum on the BCPals site (the site I belong to that is strictly for other breast cancer survivors)
It seriously messed with my head because I finally feel that I might be able to move on with my life in general now, especially having just met Paul, and that I'm moving in the right direction. Then to be reminded of what could happen... well it just wasn't what I needed to be honest. Then the friend in question posted a really positive message on the forum and it was just the kick up the backside I needed, she humbled me and I can only hope that if the same thing ever happens to me that I handle it in the same dignified way she has.... Anyway will stop talking about that now as I can't really put what I want to anyway and I bet it's not making much sense!
Another thing that helped me is a few days later getting a call from 'Breakthrough breast cancer' asking me to go to a meeting on their behalf about the Cancer Reform Strategy with among others the Governments Cancer Tsar. These things help me feel like I'm making a difference, and like I've said many times before, help me to make sense of all the rubbish I've had to put up with over the last few years. So I am very happy to have been asked and hope I can make a difference. Basically the strategy is about making the best of available recources for cancer services; so they want lots of charity and patient involvement. I'm hoping to get a chance to mention about making sure BC patients are treated in seperate wards when having surgery, and/or treatment, and having easy access to their specialists. So lets see what happens next week.
Anyway enough of my ramblings for tonight, I really must try to get some sleep- I have a busy few days ahead with visitors and car servicing and hair appointment and dentist appointments, oh and next week I start on my new MS injections too.... ooooo I'm having a flashback now, haven't I said that before?
love
Jen x
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3 comments:
Sorry to hear about your friend. We'll keep her in our prayers.
It's Friday now... will be looking forward to tonights exciting installment!
Dale
Hi Jen, its your friend here, who doesnt mind who you tell, you have full permission.
Everyone has their own **** to deal with, dont ever feel guilty for moving on, I hope you can, in a big way, and never get to do any of this again.
My life doesnt stop here, I'm definitely living with, rather than dying of, until further notice!! Getting secondaries was always a possibility, a fairly big one at that, but I've got this far, nearly 3 years from dx - and that's better than I had hoped. Apparently some girls are doing well with lung mets so I'm hoping to be one of them.
Having friends like you for support just makes things easier :)
Take care
Steph x
Don't want to put any glib sounding comments Steph my friend, so just to say quite simply that I love ya and will always be your pal.
Jen xxxxxx
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