No more smoking????

OH dear I hear you shouting at the screen ''how can a person who's had cancer smoke!" Well the same as anybody else is the answer... you just put the disgusting stick up to your mouth and take a drag...

The only reason that now I'm able to confess the atrocity of my smoking 'secret' is because I am, at last, ready to give up. The emphasis there should be on the 'I';- lots of my family and friends have been ready for me to give up smoking for an awfully long time- but as anybody who has ever smoked knows, that doesn't actually make any difference and it won't be until the person concerned is ready that the said person can even begin to imagine being successful and managing to stop completely.

So that's the stage I'm at now and have been for a few weeks actually. I've cut down dramatically on the amount I smoke and have decided now that enough is enough and I just do not want to do it anymore. I must confess to having been to my doctor for help and been given a new drug to help me. But I will still need an amount of willpower too and am really really hopeful that I can actually stop now.

I'm really looking forward to being a non smoker.... not having the guilt of making my boy a passive smoker being the main reason, but also because it'll be nice not to be embarrassed about it anymore and not having my clothes smell or my flat... and having some extra dosh... yay!!!

I'm not telling when the actual stop day is, but just to say that it is imminently imminent ha ha.... and I'm very happy about it.

When I think about it I've actually been a smoker my whole life as Mum and Dad smoked when I was growing up; so I wonder what it'll be like to live in a smoke free environment, as I've never had that pleasure.

love
Jen x